To be quite honest, I think I have been a bit out of sorts lately. You might have sensed that because I feel like it has shown in a couple of my recent blog posts.
Overall, I have a pretty sweet life. In the scheme of things, I have few stresses and nothing major to complain about but these past six or seven months have been somewhat hard on me emotionally.
During the past couple months that I have spent so much time caring for our sick and old pets, I have definitely been affected by the realization that there is a good likelihood neither of our two dogs will be around much longer. It has been difficult and extremely sad watching Bo’s body give out before his spirit. I know 14 year old Jasmin is on borrowed time too. It’s always hard losing one beloved pet but I am reminded every single day that we are probably going to have to deal with losing both dogs very close together.
Even after more than six months of being a full-time resident of Hooterville, some days I still find myself feeling displaced out here in the country and very homesick for my previous home and the city I grew up in. Despite my best efforts, the house in Hooterville still doesn’t feel like home to me yet. It’s familiar but not “home,” if that makes any sense. Maybe that’s to be expected when you live in one place *forever* and then move away.
The list of home improvement and decorating projects I want to do to this house is still quite lengthy but, for the most part, my motivation to do them has become non-existent. Every night, when I get into bed, I think about those projects and tell myself, “Tomorrow I’m going to work on… __insert 1 project from list here__.” However, when tomorrow comes, I find 101 excuses not to start that chosen project. Then, that night, I have the same mental conversation with myself again, “Tomorrow I WILL work on…” but usually I don’t.
And not only do I not feel inspired to work on house projects, I certainly don’t have the focus or motivation to blog right now either. Currently, writing posts for my blog feels more like an obligation rather than the fun hobby I want it to be. I’ve seriously considered just shutting my blog down but there is a part of me that isn’t ready to throw in the towel quite yet. I have really enjoyed the warm and friendly blogging community, as well as the creative process of blogging, so I hope my enthusiasm for blogging returns.
In the 2 + years since I started this blog, I have never actually taken what I would consider a formal break. I think now would be a good time. So, after much deliberation, I’ve made the decision to step away from my blog for awhile.
I’m not sure how long it will take me to recharge and regroup but I do hope you, my sweet, loyal readers, will still be out there when I get back.